Thriving on anger

One of the most sin practices I continue to engage in is thriving on anger. When am bored driving to work in traffic, I begin to think about times I was treated unjustly (not necessarily entirely true) and I fantasize about how I could have really retaliated. I could have sued them, made a police report (and stretched the truth to do it), got the union involved, etc.

I feel so at odds with myself when I do this. I don’t like how it feels; but I do also enjoy it in a way. What a difficult thing to admit! I thrive on evil thoughts. I know I want to want what I don’t want now. I want my drive to work to be filled with worshipful thoughts and songs. My day begins on such a peaceful note when I do this.