Avoiding God

I’m avoiding God again.  I spent time in silence and solitude on Sunday, but I didn’t really stay long enough.  It has left me mostly dry this week.  I keep sensing I need to buy the Amplified Bible (a great paraphrase translation).  I noticed on Amazon.com a lot of the reviewers only reviewed it last year.  This clearly reveals the truth of its importance.  It is also a key historical fact that it was translated mostly by a woman of God.  God bless all the women who love Him and know in their deepest hearts that Jesus COULD have been a woman!!  I think I’m just going to buy the thing today.

I’m not totally avoiding God.  I called a friend I sensed God wanted me to call.  I also apologized to my wife for a hurtful comment I made weeks ago.  I never adequately apologized for it before yesterday.  I’m not drinking heavily.  I’m even on medication that forbids it.

God guide and be with me.  Help my unbelief…Draw me closer to you.  Using your love alone.  Draw me into your Divine Heart.  May I understand the depth of your love and power.