Beyond any other joy

Silence and solitude can become addicting. I suspect that actually is a danger. But I must share it is so freeing to be alone if you let it seep inside. Regardless of some views on this, when we are alone we are away from other people, in a room or in the wilderness. God does not force his presence on us in any context. Nor is seeking his presence wise.

My time with alone this last Sunday was good. I am letting go of the need to force my mind into submission. I let the thoughts come, bad and good. I just keep reciting prayers, The Jesus Prayer…the Lord’s Prayer. However, I struggle with detecting the goodness of some thoughts. I’m starting a part-time business with the hope of it becoming my primary means of income. I struggle with determining whether or not greed is driving this. I just don’t want to work on things other people started. I feel disconnected from it. Will I be able to change for others that if I (WE!) do well? Am I just nuts to think I might succeed at this? And what is success in my mind? The worldly notion no doubt. Money. Lots of it. God save me from that and transform my vision into a holy one or tell me to drop it!!! Amen.